I came to become an atheist after generally doubting the church, a lot of religious trauma (if you could even call it that?), and probably also just being gay.
May I ask what made you doubt “the church”?
I’m asking because I’m interested in hearing what makes people lose faith. For me, it was – somewhat simplified – the combined effect of studying science (physics, mathematics, computing), reading up on evolution, becoming interested in critical examination of extraordinary claims, experiencing creationists up close, and learning about the abuses of religious cults.
I was really into science and philosophy at a young age. Also, I used to watch a LOT lot of atheist content in 5th grade, so that was the nail on the coffin for me.
It fantastic for me to see a yungun (no offense intended) to realize the falseness of religion. My problem was that I essentially born with my bullshit meter turned on. I could never believe in that bible-thing and its god-thing. Like you, I began studying science at the age of 5 by “stealing” me dad’s college textbooks from his office. By 13 I was teaching me self calculus because of me favorite science astrophysics. I once overheard me mom ask me dad, how come you don’t punish him for sneaking your books away?" Me dad simply replied, “I ain’t going to punish someone for being curious and seeking knowledge. Even if he is a sneak.”
Talk about the pride that filled me heart. Afterwards, I just went and got his books without sneaking.
I really wished there were “atheist” content for me to have perused when I was a yungun. However, in western North Carolina (ain’t been back to that state in over 50 years) the Baptists had such power, they literally controlled everything. Even the public libraries were not allowed to have science or any non-religious books. I had me dad take me to the local college library for me to get science books he did not have.
My georegion of childhood was so tyrannized by the Baptists I had no alternative but to “fake being a good christian” for I literally feared for me own life. I was beaten and attacked by both adults and their children for being a “godless satanic pagan heathen”. 7734, that area did not even know the word atheist.
Today, I prefer the term Unbeliever since it is the most accurate for me. I just do not believe in any of their god-things. I have said for many decades:
“I would rather KNOW a Truth that hurts, than believe in a lie that only gives a vacuous warm fuzzy.”
So well come. Enjoy the boards, ask what questions you have. I would take you up on the PM offer; however, I am 75 years old (76 in 3 weeks), care for me mom whom lives in me home, and too many other things. But, perhaps we can set up a mutual time, say twice a week? perhaps. I am in the Mountain Time Zone USA. Officially, it is the UTC -7 zone.