Hi, I’ve been grown up as an atheist. Since I was a child stories of Gods, Jesus and other irrationalities seemed completely unbelievable to me. I heard those every once in a while, and caused laugh to me. However, as I grew up I started to realize how religious/spiritualist people where, specially on the internet and tv. I could not believe what I saw, no matter how much nonsense something was, there were people believing in it. I have never understood that, and the more I realized how many people there were believing supernatural things the more scared I was. I really started to fear these people with all my heart, to the point of getting a depression. They seemed aliens to me living in a different reality than mine. It seemed to me that I was living a nightmare, that hidden things were lurking and I had never realized.
Recently I heard about astral projection. The ability to detach your spirit from your body by simply relaxing your muscles. And with that being able to travel throughout astral realms, full of monsters and demons. Looking over YouTube there is nothing debunking this nonsense, but instead there are hundreds of people telling how to do this and what to do when you encounter evil spirits. How come?? What did they tell me at school? How come there is this hidden world around the corner? My common sense tells me that all this is an illusion of the brain because they are able to remember, see and feel without the need of our senses. Isn’t our world vision based on light wavelengths? Isn’t our listening based on air vibrations? Aren’t our thoughts and feelings comming from the brain? I’m overwhelmed by the amount of people claiming this astral world exists and absolutely no one proving that this is another scam/hoax. I am fully depressed, I am afraid, my live is kind of breaking into pieces. All I’ve been told about life is false? Or these people are insane? How come science has never refuted something so old but so easy to experiment? It means this astral realm really exists, with demons and all those scary dull landscapes? How come blind people don’t hurry to experience this? Why isn’t this taught at school? Why is internet full of these things?
I feel I am becoming crazy. Like this world doesn’t correspond to me. The only supernatural thing I can really feel is the awe of nature. I feel amazed on how organisms have evolved and adapt to their environment. My reason says something about our real world, and is completely based on natural facts and evolution. But the internet says the opposite things. Am I crazy? I would attempt suicide if it was not for my three little kids. But can’t stand this nonsense anymore. My head is going to explode. I am medicated and hopeless.
Thanks in advance