@justsomeoneouthere I can relate completely. You are not alone, my friend. I grew up in a fundamental church, have a degree in biblical studies, was in employed ministry for over a decade, participated in formal debates, etc., etc. I also have OCD, so this whole “fear of being wrong” is something I very much understand in my every day life, especially religion. Here is how I eventually overcame it, especially as it pertains to religion. Note: I will post a shorter reply right now, and then if you want to hear more, I’ll be happy to share.
- Theoretically speaking, there is no belief system to which one could adhere that would eliminate the fear of being wrong.
The “what if’s” are present among any belief system that isn’t rooted in empirical data. What if Christianity isn’t correct, but Judaism is? A lot of smart scholars are Jews. What if Jesus was a false prophet and I need to be a Jew? What if the islamic faith is correct? Have you ever studied the islamic faith in detail? How do you know they aren’t right? What if I’m a Christian, but not the right kind of Christian? What if I’m too liberal and rejected by God? Or too conservative and legalistic, and rejected by God? With over 40,000 Christian denominations, what are my chances of getting it right even within the sphere of Christianity itself? This doesn’t even account for all the other past pagan or tribal religions that taught various forms of tormet and hell in the afterlife. What if those are actually correct, and we’ve fallen prey to just modern religions, such as Islam and Christianity?
Play around with this in your mind for a bit and see what it does. If you’re not bothered by the fact you could be wrong about Judaism, Islam, other systems of Christianity (than that of your own upbringing), and the (literally thousands) of other religions that have existed throughout human history, then the issue is actually not the fear of being wrong itself (because if it was, every religious possible outcome you could be wrong about and involces hell would cause you fear, especially the ones you know you aren’t even aware of…because the one you aren’t aware of could be the very one that is “right.” But if you’re ignorant to it, you wouldn’t know). If the only one that causes you fear is just the one you were raised in, then this is clearly an indocrination issue, not a cateorical fear of being wrong.
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Understanding more about human psychology and anthropology really helped me as well. Ironically, people who struggle with religious fear or hell anxeity (like myself) only fear being wrong in the very specific teachings we were raised with or once convinced of. It’s not just former Christians who have this fear, there are former muslims, Jews, etc. who are afraid they might be wrong. But not of Christianity. Rather, of their own past convictions of their religion. No Jew becomes an atheist and then fears whether they should be a Christian. No Christian becomes an atheist then fears whether they should be a Muslim (at least I’ve never found any evidence for this). This shows how strong and irrational fear is. For example, I’ve spent very little time studying the Quran (other than when we were very biased in seminary school and just cherry picking verses to “refute” it). But I’ve never honestly and openly given Islam a chance. But it doesn’t bother me one bit that I might be wrong about the islamic faith. Why? Because I was never indocrinated into it. The same is true of many different types of Christian denominations. I wasn’t raised in the Pentecostal church, so my fears of being wrong aren’t tied to that. My fears of being wrong are only tried to the very specific beliefs I was taught. Understanding this fact alone took away a lot of the fear and helped me understand how natural this is (especially with someone who has OCD like myself). Let’s say that there is a “god” and this true god was lost to human history because people quit believing in him, but this is the true god and we just are ignorant about it. And you die, and this true god sends everybody to hell because nobody knew about him. Does this scare you? If not, why not? Does it scare you to think you could be wrong about Judaism? If not, why not? Does it scare you to think you could be wrong about the islamic faith? If not, why not? Because human psychology. You can thank evolution for this irrational fear shit, lol. It’s just trying to keep you safe the best it knows how.
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Acceptance. I’ve accepted I could be wrong about any of these things, but I don’t “believe” I am. The same is true with Christianity. Could the conservative, Trump-loving view of God be correct? Sure. But I don’t believe it is. What if it is? Well, then I have to ask myself if I would want to follow a God that I believe is that harmful. Let me ask it another way; what if, for whatever reason, there was empirical evidence that proved the wrathful god who approved and commanded children-killing, women-raping, and genocide did exist and told you that to follow him and avoid hell you must kill innocent children because he said so. Would you do it? Would you want to follow a god like that?
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Finally, faith involves belief. Religion isn’t just action-based, it involves belief. And, I can’t just believe in whatever I want to believe in to be safe or happy (other wise, I would still believe in Santa! lol). I can’t just choose to believe in God “just in case.” I literally can’t believe in God, even though I tried really hard. I’ve studied too much and the only way I could belief in god would be to do so dishonestly, which isn’t actually belief to begin with. I could go to church, perform rituals, live a certain life, but I can’t believe no matter how much I try. So the reality is that there isn’t anything I can do about it at this point any way because I don’t believe. So, if I go to hell, then there wouldn’t have been anything I could have done about it. So if I do go to hell, then there was nothing I could have done about it any way. So why bother? And, if that kind of god does exist, most people will be there any way so we figure it out then and take on a new journey and chapter in our lives.
As someone else pointed out…if there is a supreme being, I’m convinced I wouldn’t be punished for trying my best and living based on what I believe in. It’s much better than the people who are led by fear and end up killing their children because they believe God told them to do it (and no, this doesn’t just happen to mentally “crazy” people, either).
Finally, as a side note, when I was still a Christian I realized that the Bible never even teaches eternal conscious torment, but either complete destruction for the “lost” or possibly universalism where everybody ends up getting saved). I actually believed both views are represented in the NT. So, that helped me as well to realize not only was my fear irrational, but it was predicated on a myth about hell to begin with, and something the Bible itself doesn’t teach.
Okay, I said I would give you my “shorter” answer and I did! haha I said shorter, not short. I have a lot more I could say, but this is a quick overview of how I was able to work with my OCD and religious fear of being wrong.