Well. She knew I was an Atheist. At the time she said it bothered her a little but it wasn’t “a big deal.” She basically begged me to propose to her. So I did a half ass attempt in my living room with an old wedding ring that my mother had given me from her divorce with my father. It was the only thing of his that I had left from him. Seeing as I haven’t seen my father in over 20 some years.
To help you better understand. I was 22. I was a very horny young man. She made me feel very important. Not something I ever got from any of my other girlfriends. I was an impulsive and possessive young man. I wanted to keep this woman. I liked owning things back then. Even the women I was sleeping with. I thought marriage would cement my relationship with her. I was very very mistaken.