I’m pleased that you won’t take a stand with sadists or an organization with a broken “moral compass” … years back … I did the same.
It made me sick 
when I “personally” saw or understood or realized the hypocrisy that had been there for decades upon decades.
Republican policy can be decided without Trump. Like the Democrats, there is a lot of work within the parties to be had - yet there are some great politicians quietly in the background (rising to the fore) in both sides…