@Sheldon I’m not attacking your (dis)belief, friend. I am just offering my perspective. What I have written are the ways I came to believe in deity. Do with it what you will.
When all the pieces began to fit and I realized there was an order, I realized what that missing piece for me was. Personally.
It brought me the joy all the theists I used to sneer at talked about.
What is weird is that they didn’t need my proof to feel the way I did about God.
I think I did.
We’re all different, but we can help each other.
Some people search and are met with fools or experiences that change them. Some people let the perception of other people dictate how they will read a text, like it’s the dark ages ( and that goes for theists and irreligious people alike)
I have just encouraged you to look outside your own limitations. Doing so, brought me to this forum, to some excellent conversation, has broaden my perspective, and now has begun to change our life.
I try to try to keep an open perspective. To reeinvent the boxes. Most of them were made a really long time ago.
I can see the spider woman in the creation mythos of the Dine (Navajo) as Earth’s magnetic field. How do you explain the invisible to a child?
Spider thread… Things are connected even though you may not be able to see how.
This is a picture from the NASA website when they were tracking a dent in Earth’s magnetic field.
https://www.nasa.gov/feature/nasa-researchers-track-slowly-splitting-dent-in-earth-s-magnetic-field
I believe:
“When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.”
Another great one is: Beware of false prophets which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.You shall know them by their fruits.
Do men gather grapes of thorns or figs of thistles?
Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit. (Matthew 7:15)
I know this to be true. A good person does good things no matter what they say. A bad person does bad things no matter what they say. What does that say about the people claiming to believe in the man who it’s supposed to have said that and then does awful things?
They don’t define the doctrine. They are not exemplars. They are phonies riding on the coattails of religion.
The truth moves you…and I found it in the scriptures. It’s okay that you haven’t. I’m not judging you.
The things that I write are the things that have moved me. That’s it. It just my perspective. Thank you for sharing yours with me.
There is esoteric (intended for or likely to be understood by only a small number of people with a specialized knowledge or interest). There is a book, the bible. There is faith (belief without evidence).
… numbers - Ah, I allowed my “inner sight” to guide me to 1/2, halve and 8 = 2 oh and along with 10 (interesting, IF I add them it’s 12) YES!!! Complete. 12 is a complete number (dozen, months in year,
judge Judy 
. Judges make decisions based on a standard of evidence.
I agree. So what? I can find or take value from about every situation or conversation.