I was a Christian for 30 years and believed I had a relationship with God, but never once did I hear a voice or experience anything that could not be explained by natural processes or chance. I saw the complexity of nature as strong evidence for God’s existence and used it in my many attempts to convert people to my worldview. I had bouts of “special knowledge” where I was certain that God was working on my life and would save me. That made me a gnostic (though I would have vehemently disagreed with this classification at the time). When I look out my window as I write this I see evidence for the existence of a god or gods, but no proof. If there is a god or gods they have made no attempt to give me proof of their existence. The God of the bible who I once forced myself to “Love” is a monster who I believe is the construct of human minds, though I cannot prove this. I personally don’t believe in the existence of gods, but make no claims that I am correct and am doing my best to stay well clear of faith. I’m not sure what that would categorise me as.