Im not sure I buy his story about him being an Atheist for 28 years. He’s probably been a theist his entire life who went through a “crisis of faith”. I just cant take those who bounce back and forth seriously. You’re either an Atheist or you’re not. I don’t see any middle ground. No one ever goes back to believing in the Easter Bunny or Santa Claus once they conclude they’re fictional fairy tales.
Speaking from experience when my ex wife gave me an ultimatum; re-convert or divorce. I went to church with her and I tried to make myself believe in it. I told myself in my head “it’s real” over and over. I sat through the sermons in church trying to make myself believe. I couldn’t. All I felt was anger and that it was all bullshit. I hated it. I found myself asking myself: “How is any of this real? Look at the stories. They’re so fucked up and silly. Really? Why do people believe in this shit? If it were real we wouldn’t need hospitals or Science.”