So you want your life to suck?
Dreams come and go every day. Improvise, you’ll be happier for it.
…and you do have a choice to divorce your wife, move out, and quit talking to some of your toxic pious family members. Which is what I did after 11 years being married to a serial cheating, lying, hypocritical pious woman who had no respect for me. I moved out into an apartment, I quit giving her money, filed for divorce, and won. I demonstrated over time that she and her family couldn’t treat me that way and get away with it.
I believe your wife has emasculated you. She’s stripped you of your manhood. You’re all talk about how tough you are, yet you’re with people who piss all over you and you refuse to do anything and nothing about it. So I guess we can say that you choose to be miserable.
Honestly, If you wanted out bad enough, if you really wanted to be happy and better your life, you’d find every excuse and opportunity to do it. I bullshit you not, you would find a way. There’s always a way out and I say all of this to help you.